Twisted Tale

I stood there,

For as long as time could pass,

Each moment and each second.

There is something about you,

That makes me pick up every broken pieces of me,

And tried to mend it back slowly.

I’ve heard that the eyes is the window of the soul,

But your soul I can’t decipher.

I saw the way it glint,

And that amusing hint of voice that follows.

Out of misery, I would smile.

Your shadow passes through me,

Something I can’t catch.

Your life starts of a white canvas,

Painted vibrant but turning dull.

Those forsaken look,

If only I could went back time,

And look at the innocent boy you were once,

I would hold you tight and let that crystal flow,

I would take away that pain and gave my joy.

Alas,

Life is not ours to begin with.

The path we are in now,

Is full of despair and disappointment.

Full of sounds of broken hearts and broken spirits.

The canvas is torn and purity tainted.

Picking up broken pieces meant nothing,

If by the end of the day we bleed from it.

Fates entwined,

Treads tangled.

Tears spilled,

Frustrations enlarged.

But you managed to pull me through,

Through the darkness, through the wreaked.

Against the possibility,

Against the stream of negativity.

Transcends normality.

Henceforth,

The twisted tale.

Origin: A side effect from reading my friend's (eleena) stories & John Green's.
Time: 17/01/2014
Dedicated to: A close friend of mine =)

Sonnet #1

As I lower down my forehead touches the ground,
My mind drift and my heart trembles,
The world as though by nature halt to a stop as I found,
No words to decribe the feeling I gamble..
Closing my eyes deep down I dive,
Chanting and repeating The Vow I promised,
Of my purpose in this dear life,
My simple action brings complicated meaning as this..
Oh God, how worthless and filthy I am,
Here I was performing my sacred ritual,
But head full of worldly thoughts I cram,
Forgive me, my dear Lord for I lack being mutual.
As for now I stand by my stand,
For every prayer, every sin I'll repent.

Origin: For my literature class, we each need to write a sonnet about physical experience.. This is what I got..
Time: Yesterday, 18/06/12
Dedicated to: HIM! My Lord, Allah.

#I know I haven't post anything here for ages!!

~*Revival of the heart*~

Here I am,
Once again drifting from reality,
Taken as a prisoner,
In this unknown world...

As those painful tears slipped,
I heard my name being called,
Your presence felt near,
Yet your existence seems so far...

Like Juliet waiting for her Romeo,
Like a Princess waiting for her Prince,
But I'm neither,
Than a girl frozen in time...

I'm hoping for a helping hand,
For a soft gesture,
For a warm feeling,
To where I belong...

As autumn approached,
My thoughts followed it's track,
Leaving behind my blossom feelings,
And get ready for the frowen truth...

By the end,
I laid back to re-enter reality,
To bring back the time,
To mask myself from the pain,
And to revive you..
My Dear Heart...

Origin: It came from the Heart.. :-)
Time: 25/06/09
Dedicated to: No one really.. Just a pen of thoughts...

*Prince in my Eyes*

There you were,
Sitting by yourself,
Under the oak tree...
I want to get near you,
But you are firmly guarded...

Being around you is hard,
Being with you is impossible...
Knowing that I began to back away,
But then you notice me the second i did...
You didn't let your guard down,
Neither change your act upon those glances...

I watched you from afar,
Faced the ground when you looked my way...
Quietly seeing you smile, seeing you laugh,
It fascinates me that I began to feel content by just watching you...
While slowly I get attracted by you,
You became a bit free with your emotion...

Unthinkably, I began to smell the forbidden flower...
Afraid to move,
Afraid to lose you,
But you're still sitting there,
Glancing at me sometimes...

Distance yet close,
Cold yet warm,
Sorrowful yet happy...

It's the beginning of an unusual relationship,
Between the Cold Prince,
And the Ice Maiden...

*Origin: When thinking bout him n knowing abt our 2 worlds apart.. I pened it out..
*Time: Recently, 8th April 2009...
*Dedicated to: The person I just met.. My Kisa (knight in shining armour)

*BetrayeL*

I'm gettin' weaker,
Maybe its all started to come back to me,
Why didnt you come?
Why did you leave me back there all alone?

I thought its been clear now,
That you are going to help me endure the pain,
To help me to trust,
But you prove me otherwise...

I was hurt...
I was hurt by your heartless move,
I was hurt by your unspoken motive,
Unregretfully, I began to turn away from the happiness in this world..

Hurt, Pain, Suffer...
My head is full of that,
Hatred, Revenge, Darkness..
You filled my heart with those things...

Eventually, my heart began to despise the light,
My soul began to tremble,
My life began to change,
And it all started with YOU...

You made the heartless girl I am,
You are the reason why I started to hate,
Love meant losing,
Why can't i understand that from the 1st try...

Now seeing you hurts me,
As I sing this hurtful melody through your ears,
Hopefully it will kill your hope,
And seal it within my soul...

To see you suffer,
To hear you scream my name,
To make you beg for forgiveness,
To let you taste your own medicine,
And make you realize what you've created...

*Origin: It was my thoughts to some Anime couple.. N lil' bout how I felt..
*Time: Durin 1 ov my hard time, 2007..
*Dedicated to: Who ever feel the same way..

*Alice I mean't to be..*

Sitting in the dark corner of the room,
I observe my surrounding,
It was so cold and empty,
Yet was filled with priceless items...

Trying to move to the center,
But my feet was limp to the ground,
Moving my hand was impossible too,
Because I was tied to an unseen string.

My pretty hat, my expensive dress,
It meant nothing in this condition,
My glassy eyes stared into the dream-like world,
But the dreams i see don't fascinate me.

I tried to talk,
But my lips are frozen,
I can't speak, I can't sing,
No other way to let people know how i feel...

Because that's the Alice I meant to be..

*Origin: Well, mostly by the song 'Still Doll'-Kanon Wakeshima.. I re-did it in my POV.. About a girl who cant seem to find freedom, even when she's not tied to anything but her own.. That's Alice..
*Time: Early 2009 (Form 5)
*Dedicated to: Haha, mostly to whoever felt the same way as Her and Me..

*Tears and Fears*

I looked at his eyes,
And I saw how fragile he is..
The strength and the braveness he held all this time,
Lost under the wave of weakness..

I saw the window of his heart close,
The light in his life faded,
He tried to erase it all,
But he failed to play that role..

His heart filled with misery,
And his soul is full of rage,
He looked at me like a lost boy,
Tried to hide all his feelings away..

But he failed to fake it,
As pure crystal rolled down his cheek,
And he did it,
The one thing guys will never reveal..
Feelings and tears..

He showed me the real him,
The person he tried to cover,
And the feeling he tried to hide..
Fear..

*Origin: Thot bout it when I saw a guy's weakness..
*Time: Around 2006 (Sec 2)
*Dedicated to: Generally, to every guys who think they are tough enuf, but sumtimes, Its ok to let it go..